AaarrggghHH!!!
"what the hell am I feeling jealous for!".. No matter how many times I ran this through my head I just can't get over the fact that I'm damned jealous. I know I shouldn't be, I'm nobody, I was perhaps someone she found easy to get along with, her buddy. But that's it, no more no less. Her heart is somewhere else (last I checked it was in New York, US).
That explains the sudden change, the abrupt coldness in her. It just went from bad to worst, I don't know what to do to escape from this pain I'm feeling. Hard times!